It’s interesting how you can think you want something, only to find out it’s not what you really wanted.
I love teaching about vocations in class. Not only because, it’s something the students are interested in, but also because I think contemplating vocations early is a healthy practice.
How many of us take years to figure out what we are supposed to do with our lives? How many of us try to figure it out on our own, without consulting God? We go from job to job or boyfriend to boyfriend trying to figure out what makes us happy. All the time not slowing down long enough to really hear God’s voice. To stand still, long enough, to really listen, to really think about what we really desire.
You learn in religion class about the different kinds of vocations one could be called into, and learn in Career and Personal Planning what kinds of careers one could have. I was no different than many young people trying to figure out what I was supposed to be. I was also terrified that God would call me to something that I really did not want to be.
I had always wanted to have an exciting career. If you go back to my grade 7 yearbook it says marine biologist or private investigator. My grade 4 teacher said I would make a good teacher, and I told him that would never happen, too boring. It’s interesting the way that God works.
I started feeling drawn to the vocation of marriage in my senior year of high school, and although I was far from being ready to marry (obviously), I still felt myself making decisions that would put me in a good position to marry, if I ever did. I started dating guys I thought I could marry, and the second I knew I wouldn’t marry them, I stopped the relationship. I began making lists of desirous qualities I wanted in a future mate and even read some relationship books. Then I started rethinking my choice of careers. I realized that being a marine biologist or private investigator would probably not be the best choice, if I wanted a family one day. Then the idea of teacher sprang to mind. Suddenly everything started to click into place. Even though it was the idea of marriage that first drew me to teaching, I soon realized that I loved everything about teaching and how it encompassed all my passions into one profession.
Even though I was really starting to like the idea of being married and becoming a teacher, it took me a long long time to admit this to anyone. I don’t know why I was afraid. Maybe it was my pride, because I had always said being a teacher was the last thing I wanted to be. I also didn’t share my desire to get married, probably because I was afraid that maybe it wouldn’t happen and I would look silly or people would say I was too young to be thinking about that etc.
In the end I am glad I was open to God’s calling, I’m glad I asked him for guidance, and am glad I trusted Him with my happiness. I’m glad that I really took time to contemplate life, to contemplate what God was calling me to be. It is so easy in this day and age to not contemplate or discern our calling, because we have so much on the go. We move from day to day doing, what we think we want to do, not realizing we’re not doing what we were meant to do, until we get to the point of being super unhappy. Think about how much easier life would be, if we were just open to God from the beginning, and not so stubborn, as to try to figure it out on our own.
I think vocations is one of the most important topics we cover in religion class. It’s such an important part of our happiness, to know we have a purpose, to have that feeling of, “This is what I was born to do”. As a teen, initially, I wasn’t given much guidance about how to tell if God was calling you to a certain vocation. I thought that it didn’t matter, about what I desired, and that God could call me to something I really did not want to be. It was not until I grew so fearful that God would make me a nun that I finally consulted my parents on how you know what your vocation is. My parents told me that God would never call me to be something that would make me unhappy. They also talked about how we can recognize our calling through our deepest desires. What a relief that was! Later when I became a teacher and studied vocations more, I learned how true my parents had been. Through discovering my own vocation, I realized that God’s call really is like a whisper in the wind (sorry to sound cliche!) and it should fill you with intense joy, not intense dread!
Now one of the biggest things I stress with my own students, when talking about vocations, is that God wants you to be happy. He gives us our desires to help us discover what we are really meant to be. Of course, sometimes it takes us a long time to really figure out what our deepest desires are. It can be difficult to decipher between superficial things and what we really want. Of course there are outside influences as well, like what your parents expect from you, or what others will say. These are all obstacles to finding our real purpose, but they can be overcome if we just take the time in prayer, to consult with God, He made us and knows us best.
I also have to be careful of my own bias towards the vocation of marriage. This I find difficult, because I love being married, I love talking about marriage. I don’t want my students, who may not share my enthusiasm for marriage, to feel like a vocation they are drawn to, is somehow less than the one I was called to. So I try to be fair in regards to all vocations, but I think I will try this year to bring people, with different vocations, to share their stories. I think that’s the only way I can do all the vocations justice.
I feel like there is so much more to talk about on this subject, and that I have just scratched the surface, but I dislike blogs that read like a novel! So maybe I will have to save it for another day 🙂